This image of wanting to be an artist - that I would in some way become an artist -was very strong. I knew for a long, long time that that's what I would be. But nothing I ever did seemed to bring me any nearer to the condition of being an artist. And I didn't know how to do it.

这种想成为一名艺术家的想法——在某种程度上我将成为一名艺术家——非常强烈。在很长很长一段时间里，我知道我将成为这样的人。但我所做的一切似乎都没有使我更接近成为一名艺术家。我不知道怎么做。