Although Salinger had long since cut me out of his life completely and made it plain that he had nothing but contempt for me, the thought of becoming the object of his wrath was more than I felt ready to take on.
虽然塞林格早就把我从他的生活中彻底剔除了，并且明确表示他对我只有蔑视，但一想到要成为他愤怒的对象，我就觉得自己已经准备好了。